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DON'T FEEL LIKE I CAN MANEUVER THIS 'COPYING TAO LIN' PROBLEM ANY MORE
sort of feel like a plane is going to crash into myself right now
after receiving an email that was 'so sweet' i immediately felt really unhappy
the other day i imagined myself killing a bunch of bicycle cops with a semi-automatic assault rifle
i keep 'drifting off' when you talk to me, or when we're supposed to be having an emotional moment;
visualizing my mom's face while she's reading my book, or something
one time i patted you on the back
i immediately felt out-of-control and weird
seems like cops shouldn't ride around on bicycles
i'm trying to think of a metaphor or something, unrelated to cops on bicycles
just thought 'wwjd' then 'what would jesus do' then like, something about how to change the acronym into something funny and relevant, and then rejected the idea
JUST MAXIMIZED GMAIL, FELT REALLY BAD
just touched my hair
just looked at my cd shelf
just looked at my space heater
just looked at my cell phone, then an empty coffee mug, then my desk lamp, then my keys, then my checkbook, then an envelope addressed to me
damn
just touched my face
HAVE I ALIENATED MYSELF
'what did i do to deserve this'
have i alienated myself
trying to feel emotional right now
just thought about self-publishing a shitty poetry book for what feels like no real reason
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