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I WANT TO CALL YOU A BITCH
BY BRANDON SCOTT GORRELL

i felt really bad about our relationship but for some reason when i opened up my 'my documents' folder i felt good about everything's existence including plants and boats and metal structures and mine also

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SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TODAY
BY ZACHARY GERMAN

i got on the L train at 8th avenue

i noticed that a black woman didn't get off the 8th avenue bound L train

she stayed on it as it became a brooklyn bound L train

i saw her sitting across from me

later i didn't see her

later she was sitting next to me

she said 'can i ask you a question'

she said 'what book is that'

i was reading 'honored guest' by joy williams

i said 'honored guest by joy williams' quietly and showed her the cover of the book

she said 'what'

i said the same thing, louder, and showed her the cover of the book for a longer period of time

she said something like 'can you read fast'

i said 'yes'

she said something like 'and you can write?'

i said 'yes'

she said 'you write well?'

i said 'yes'

she said 'are you working right now'

i said 'yes'

she said 'what'

i said 'yes'

she said 'and do you go to school'

i said 'no'

she said 'there is hair in your face'

she said 'may i move the hair out of your face'

i said 'no'

she said 'you have a bang'

she said 'there is a bang in your face'

she said 'may i move it back'

i said 'no'

she said 'are you married'

i said 'no'

she said 'but do you have children'

i said 'no' and laughed quietly, nervously

she said 'but do you want to have children'

i said 'no'

she said 'alright'

she didn't say anything for a little while

she said 'so you don't want to get married'

i said 'i don't know'

she said 'you've never dated any girls?'

she said 'are you gay'

she said 'sir are you gay'

she said 'it's my stop'

she said 'goodbye'

she said 'say goodbye sir'

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QIM DRUNK
BY VICTORIA TROTT

im
dRunk
i hate my sleif self, nand life
because i m so bad at people
josh my brother said PRIDE
its true
pride is when you think
you're better than
other people
thats my disease
everyone i saw today when i was drunk looked at me like they ghated me
WHY Do they hate m
e
i m fucked and induce hate in others
and fucked
itwi awas so bad
i felt scareed
i wish i had any friends
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME
i need some friends
at least one person
oh my god fucked
i am an imitative fuckedass bitch
i hate myself
no idont
i am pride
i hate, how i end up lookinbg to opther people]drnk
FUCk drunk
fuck fuck fuck fukck fuck fuck theeere is no hope for me there is no solution, seriously, io am just fuck fuck fuck fuck fucked aso fu ked
logic doesnt exist in my life
i make stupid selfish assshole nobohyud like sm me znpnfpzmnofboyBNOBODY
fuck i wih i had a frienf at least one
now i willo go make RAMEn noddles

PEOPLE LIKE ME BETTER WHEN I AM SKINNIER
BUT WHEN PEOPLE DONT LIKE ME IO EAT MORE
DESTRUCTIVE DEATH CYCLE OF ME BEING FATFATFATFATFATFAT
ranen noodles

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LEMMINGS PAINTBALL
BY ZACHARY GERMAN

from THE NAME OF THIS BAND IS THE TALKING HEADS, issue 2

there was an elderly woman
she was asian
she had a large patch of hair on the right side of her face
i stared at the large patch of hair and i didn't care about anything
i looked away and i cared about some things

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TONIC HAS A LOT OF CALORIES, INTERESTINGLY
BY ZACHARY GERMAN

from THE NAME OF THIS BAND IS THE TALKING HEADS, issue 2

i feel like one day i'll stop being able to walk or something
and then all of a sudden i'll be my cat
and my cat will be me
she'll go to work
and answer my cell phone when it rings

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THE WORLD WOULD BE HAPPIER WITH ME DEAD IN IT
BY VICTORIA TROTT

i feel sad
i like comfort so much

i keep seeing myself talking to my dad
about like, jesus or something
or being uncomfortable of mr. sheikh
and acting all civilised
to avoid discomfort

i won’t ever be able to do anything or realize life is meaningless
i’ll just be a bullshit person
like everyone who made me in my family
i’m gonna be a bullshit person
an asshole

i do not want this to happen
i already am an assshit bullhole
fuck

i can’t even use concrete images

blue flower
dyed industrially

that was not connected to anything
it was an image
a cliche image
fuck
i’m a bullhole cliche
assshit

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